06 July 2005

Seeing the Big Picture

I'm in a period of much confusion and disillusionment. Much has been going wrong and outlook is very bleak at work. For once I have no clear path to tread and every option is both frightening and foreboding to me. It's depressing, to say the least. While moping around last night, I flipped to the day's reading of Oswald Chambers' classic, My Utmost For His Highest, just on a whim.

I was stunned by the amazing serendipity of the page leaping out at me. 'Don't Plan Without God' was its opening line, followed by a verse: 'Commit your way to the Lord, trust also in Him, and He shall bring it to pass —Psalm 37:5' Oswald Chambers, in short, reminded me to factor in God as the biggest factor and to eliminate the present evil and uncertain future from my ruminations. Neither the evil intentions of people nor the uncertainties of the future are in my control. But God certainly is. I'm reminded that I don't live in a closed system of cause and effect. Not all factors are equal. There is a Higher Power who intervenes and guides..

I mentioned the reading to my wife, to which she replied: 'If God brought us through the years in Kelantan, what is this?' That's putting it in perspective for me!